I knew she was setting herself up for trouble. I’m struggling on my views in her now. I’m disappointed on how someone so intelligent would do something so stupid. Then again there’s a fine line between being “book smart” and “street smart”. I try to understand why. You see
She broke up with her boyfriend of five years. I’ve talked about her in a previous post concerning that. I was really certain her bettering herself would backfire, and it did.
They started being friends for like a week or two. While he had a new girlfriend (who is a rebound right after he broke up with her. And she wanted to be friends and he was like “oh I can’t talk to you I have a gf” but he still talked to her anyway) She said to me before they were friends that “you just can’t be friends with an ex”. After that bs she started texting him a week later, and then starts talking with him on the phone late at night. I asked her if she’s back with him and she said no just friends. That was when I knew she was planning on trying to get him back. And I really didn’t like it because in a situation like trying to get back the guy who is in a new relationship AND he broke up with you because you weren’t the same anymore, doesn’t work out well.
So I come back from uni and find her still in bed. At 2. That’s when I knew. She invited him over, and they kissed. And I was pissed. Because I really hate situations like that. He cheated on his girlfriend, and she knew his was still with her, but did it anyway. They were both in the wrong. And she wanted me to pity her. Pity her. What I did instead was say nothing. I was too pissed off and disappointed for words. “It’s not like what I did was wrong.”
“Okay, yeah, like inviting an ex who you knew is taken already, and still did that, was not wrong.” Then she started crying. I felt a little bit sorry I said that, but it was true. I had to give her the punch in the face with reality.
She said that she regretted it, and that he felt bad too. They’re still texting. Now I hope they won’t get back together, because if they did, it would just turn bad again. And it’s highly he might just cheat on her too like he did just today. In fact, he cheated on her before. And knowing that she still wants to be with him makes me mad. What happened to saying he’s not someone who deserves her? I guess that was just a cover-up to what she actually felt.
Well, I thought my sister had good judgement on everything, but love isn’t one of them. Seeing her become manipulative, catty, sneaky for a boy just makes me go uuuaaghhh
Now I’m reminded how my ex’s girlfriend said that he cheated on me with her, and I wasn’t sure if she was lying or not. I think it’s highly possible that he did, and that he cheated the way like my sister’s situation did. If he actually did, then it’s no wonder why he broke up with me. He would have done it out of guilt and didn’t want to deal with that if he was still with me. Or he just never liked me. Ooh, I knew I should have broke up with him sooner, but he beat me to it first. But he confused the shit out of me when he was still trying to send me romantic texts after the breakup. I guess it was out of guilt? Wanting to see if I still liked him because he loves the attention?
Ah, well, it’s ancient history now.
I really hope she doesn’t stay with him. I told her it’s not healthy, and that he’s not worth it. It’s no use pining over about. She told me that I’ll never understand, because I’ve never had my heart broken before.
She means the way it feels like someone broke through your chest and started squeezing your heart? The way it throbs out of pain, making your head hurt and not think clearly? How it makes you gasp for breath between every throbbing pulse your heart makes, suffocating you, while making you scared that you might die from the unbearable wrenching pain and lack of breathe? Or is it like she experienced—stomach hurting and having a terrible headache for days.
If only she knew.